The joys of motherhood definitely come at a price. That price is sleep deprivation! Some days I wish I could just sleep the day away. Do you know that I have realized I NEVER just lay on our couch. Never! I used to lay there and watch a show during the day or movies but not anymore. Now I go, go, go from the moment I wake up until just about the time I pass out at night. I still sit at night and think 'Seriously...what did I DO all day?!" I know that I am physically in motion all day but sometimes it really feels and looks like I did absolutely nothing productive or that anyone is ever even going to notice the things I actually did get done. Is my husband going to notice I wiped the baseboards downstairs or sanitized the door handles in our house or Magic Erased the black scuff marks on the walls from the kids? No. I know that full well and honestly if the shoe was on the other foot I suppose I might not notice those things either. I know that is just my prideful self coming out that craves the pat on the back at doing a good job. Praise God that He is watching and notices all those little things that I do actually get done. It's the silly things that my neurotic brain thinks of to do. I guess someone here needs to be neurotic about those things or they wouldn't happen.
I often try to remember what it was like when I was young and carefree. When I could do whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted without having to get a babysitter, etc. I can't even fathom that life anymore. I am definitely much happier in my life now at the point that I am but every once in a while a little sleep would make me a happy woman!
I love to watch my children sleep. I think because I am living vicariously through them in the sleep department. That AND sometimes it is the only time all day their little mouths are quiet. I definitely have a lively bunch! I took Ava to the store last night and she just about talked my ear off the entire trip. Now I know how Jared must feel when I continually interrupt him with all my crazy thoughts such as...
'Where do peppercorns come from????'
'Why do they insist on calling dried grapes, raisins, but they call dried cranberries, dried cranberries? Why don't they call it like it is and package them as dried grapes??!!'
Yes, I know I could Google these but it is so much more exciting for me to find out if my husband knows the answer and drive him crazy trying to explain it to me.
Here's to desperate prayers to God for His strength, caffeine, and tylenol during this season of life!!! Can I get an AMEN from all my moms out there?! LOL
Have a blessed day!
